人在屋檐下 不得不低头

tomorrow is the 30th of lunar calender
the day before chinese new year
it's the first time i didnt get to celebrate with my family
then i realize the only reason im looking forward to cny is because i can get with my family *besides red packets*
it's my first day of school however
which means my busy school life is just around the corner
today is a very tiring day
did a whole lot of things
not to mention the lack of sleep and drowsiness
tomorrow will be ensee's birthday party i guess it will be a busy day too
i felt like i somehow got use to this environment
no more weeping at the night
no more frightening tears waking me up
no more nightmares haunting me
loneliness is the only thing remained
perhaps helplessness
a lil hands trembling sometimes though
but it's okay i'll stay strong :)

i once denied the trust and faith between people
i once convinced myself to be well protected in my own castle
i once chose not to hate or love and get hurt
you are the reason i believed and gave myself the very last chance
just like i used to be
the very old me
the very inner part of me
i couldnt resist the sincerity you have
thank you for letting that stupid me out
and lit my world with warmth and love
the very first time i wish i could be someone better simply just for another person besides myself and my family