outing with alicia, chayxiang and well-i dont-know-his-name guy and some sort of them
it has been a long time since i last touched a mic and h*s* this is great
i enjoy my night very much:)
thought of my darling
no one there to order hot lemon tea for me :/
and i end up got myself a coke cause i decide that's a memory..some sort of 默契between me and ling :P
i remember how she always said "ling你要热的ice lemon tea 的是?"
and now i realize how important she is wahahaha
sometimes i hesitate to go out for parties with some of my friends cause i feel somehow insecure
*kays some of the friends refer to those new-made-friends...mostly open and gossipy*
like i would think of what if im drunk..what if they gave me some sort of drugs mixing in my drink without myself realising it? what if...x1000
okay i know im being over-sensitive..over-cautious..well anything u call it but im just afraid
didn't want to get myself into trouble...moreover im not in my territory...if sth's really up i don't have the ability to solve it..not to even face it perhaps...
eliminate every event that i think it might be harmful and attend those which seems okayy
which means events with trustful ppl or appropriate hours(lunch or dinner but not midnights)
i know..im boring and i hate myself being a nerd...duh :0
but comparing to those i cant bear to risk myself..so i guess im right..right? :) *winks*
that's why i hope my old friends are around...with them i dont have to worry of these sort of things...they are reliable and we take care of each others...
like..im quite sure that i can be a drunked crazy girl in front of hooi without thinking of anything else...i wont even worry that things might get wrong if i sleep over at his place...alone...not worried even if we are in the same bed*i never had that though*....this is what called trustful reliable best friend..trust without words...felt secure unconditionally :)
aiyor i hope next summer comes fast..i miss food...and many of em
AWWHH..sleepy..nite world (:
1734...12 November
0334...12 November
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